I’ve always considered my self to be a strong person who will think before acting and who can control situations/ reactions when they happen. I’ve never been intimidated by any concept/ idea/ thought. I thought that the right words will always find their way out my mouth when I need them to be present and that I will stun my counter partner when that happens.

FALSE!

None of it was right. None of what I thought I am is right and when I discovered that I was in a long state of shock that is still running since 2002. Why 2002? It is the year when I was introduced to the real me- a situation which was enforced over me in a moment when all my guards were down. In 2002 I was with 5 of my friends in an institute trying to get a project solved for a course back in the university days. We took off in one of the girl’s cars to a Mall in order to spend some time there until the project is processed in the institute. The driver took a U turn- and while we were talking and laughing about so many issues in our lives- I felt as if I was hit by a stick on my head and I stopped breathing for a while. 

I saw light turns into a black empty space where I couldn’t see, feel or comprehend anything. The car stopped in the middle of the street and that is when light came back again and pictures started to rush into my head. We were just hit by a car from the opposite direction! I looked at the people who rushed into the accident spot and I heard some one saying “there must be some one died in there!” I took a closer look at my friends in the car; the driver and the girl next to her left the car to check on us in the back seat. They were uninjured at all- thank God. All of that happened in like 15 seconds. In my head I could hear nothing but heavy silence that almost deafens me.

I started looking at my self now. I couldn’t move my hands at all- then I felt my legs were numb too. My left leg was twisted and I tried to move it but I couldn’t. I panicked and I started shacking so hard that the police men thought I am dieing or something. They started talking to me and trying to calm me down. All what I could think about is that I was paralyzed; my back hurts like hell, I can’t move my legs or hands- rational conclusion I guess.

The ambulance arrived and we were rushed into the hospital and all what I could do is cry and scream from pain and I couldn’t stop thinking about the possibility of me being paralyzed for life. When we arrived to the hospital I was scanned and they found out that I had several injuries summed in a broken back and several broken bones here and there. “She will need good 3 months to heal- but she will heal” said the Dr. But, why was I unable to move my self and why my hands and legs were numb?

Fear my friends. Fear is a very strong enemy that most of us are not aware of. It regularly attacks you when you are completely off guarded.