SCT: May 2006

Trial and error learning is one of the most famous ways to learn some practical lessons in this life. You may rise if you are lucky –although I don’t believe in luck- and you may fall.

“The end justifies the mean” is one of the modules that people would actually use to reach their goals in life. It is a fight where all tools are allowed, a game where rules do not apply. Ah- but wait a minute- I am so violent when it comes to my vision towards life. Don’t know why! But I will find out sooner or later. Nothing personal but my vision towards life is copy righted- I would not want any one to be bound to it- it is difficult to maintain. I’m full of contradicted issues- but who isn’t any way!

I live my life to the extreme- in every thing.

Craig David and Sting have a wonderful song describing the process of rising to your dreams using the “end justifies the mean” tool. It is called "Rise and Fall". Expressing one’s mistake and how awful it feels after you loos the people you care for and love for materialistic and unworthy stuff are amazingly introduced in this song. The question is “will you be lucky enough to get your love back and be forgiven for what you've done and compromised to reach the stars- your stars?” will luck be your best friend and work for you- or will your demons hunt you forever and never give you a chance to make up for your old mistakes? Who knows!!

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Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,
And it seems as though the writings on the wall,
Superstar you finally made it,
But once your picture becomes tainted,
It's what they call,
The rise and fall

I always said that I was gonna make it,
Now it's plain for everyone to see,
But this game I'm in don't take no prisoners,
Just casualties,
I know that everything is gonna change,
Even the friends I knew before me go,
But this dream is the life I've been searching for,
Started believing that I was the greatest,
My life was never gonna be the same,
Cause with the money came a different status,
That's when things change,
Now I'm too concerned with all the things I own,
Blinded by all the pretty girls I see,
I'm beginning to lose my integrity

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,
And it seems as though the writings on the wall,
Superstar you finally made it,
But once your picture becomes tainted,
It's what they call,
The rise and fall

I never used to be a troublemaker,
Now I don't even wanna please the fans,
No autographs,
No interviews,
No pictures,
And less demands,
Given advice that was clearly wrong,
The type that seems to make me feel so right,
But some things you may find can take over your life,
Burnt all my bridges now I've run out of places,
And there's nowhere left for me to turn,
Been caught in compromising situations,
I should have learnt,
From all those times I didn't walk away,
When I knew that it was best to go,
Is it too late to show you the shape of my heart,

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over,
And it seems as though the writings on the wall,
Superstar you finally made it,
But once your picture becomes tainted,
It's what they call,
The rise and fall

Now I know,
I made mistakes,
Think I don't care,
But you don't realise what this means to me,
So let me have,
Just one more chance,
I'm not the man I used to be,
Used to be

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It really doesn’t matter who your guide was throw the rising process because when it comes to falling- you are ALL ALONE!

Remember it is Easy to do justice but hard to do right !

Love,

Every experience in this life should count towards our learning dictionary. I don’t know how many times I made the same mistake- over and over again. Mostly, it is not because I’m retarded neither a slow learner, but because I can be easily tempted!

Ronan Keating has a song called “the long goodbye” and it is talking about how painful it is when two lovers can’t fulfil their dreams by being together. It is striking how much the words of this song speak about most of us in this life. The story in this song happened with most of us, it is still happening and it will keep on happening because when it comes to heart/love matters there is no power in the world that can stop the inevitable from striking!

I know they say if you love somebody

You should set them free (so they say)

But it sure is hard to do

Yeah, it sure is hard to do

And I know they say if they don't come back again

Then it's meant to be (so they say)

But those words ain't pulling me through

Cause I'm still in love with you

I spend each day here waiting for a miracle

But it's just you and me going through the mill

(Climbin' up a hill)

This is the long goodbye

Somebody tell me why

Two lovers in love can't make it

Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?

No matter how hard I try

You're gonna make me cry

Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it

All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really

Give our love a chance (just one more chance)

and I know without a doubt

I turned it inside out

And if we walked away

would make more sense (only self defense)

But it tears me up inside

Just to think we still could try

How long must we keep riding on a carousel

Going round and round and never getting anywhere?

(on a wing and prayer)

In conclusion;

No one learns his/her lessons in this life without paying for them in a way or another. Price sometimes tend to be too high and painful, but the glass is half full- we learn!

Keep your spirit high- Love will come your way some day.

Love,